Letting Go

Well, my daughter has been away at college for about 6 weeks. I’m excited to say that she loves her classes, her professors and all of that aspect seems to be going well. But…I’m struggling. She is at school without a car so relies on friends if she needs to go somewhere and ony gets to come back home if someone can bring her along which doesn’t always work out. So, she has spent a couple weekends alone because her friends came back and she didn’t or they have other plans etc. It makes her sad and she is learning to deal with the challenges of being on her own. The problem is as bad as I want to make everything alright for her, I can’t! This is a moment in her life where she has to do some growing up. It may be painful, but she’ll be ok. It’s hard to be here and she’s 2.5 hours away! I can’t run to her, solve the problem and make it all ok. She has to make it all OK on her own. She has to rediscover that she isn’t alone, that God is with her and will help her learn to adjust being on her own. I pray for God to put great people in her path; Christian friends that won’t be fake, won’t let her down and that He will build in her life long friendships. I pray He gives her the courage to step out of her comfort zone and into His. She needs to step out of her comfort zone in order to meet people. She has to figure all this out and as much as I would like to, I can’t figure it out for her. This is probably one of the hardest moments in my life. My heart just aches because I love her so much I never want to see her hurting.

I think there are times when God watches us go thru things that He knows are hard but in the end will make us stronger. I know this is just part of growing up for my daughter and she’ll get thru it just fine. I just hope I do.

For all you mom’s sending kids off to kindergarten; that was just the basic training for moments like this! Stock up on the tissues, get unlimited minutes on your cell phone, learn how to text and IM and pray for God to get you through. I know He will, He hasn’t let me down yet!!

OH, Ron and I are going up next weekend to visit.